Cloud 26 - Counting my blessings everyday…

I have turned 26. Wow.

Had my first celebration with my nonsense gang last Thursday.
Dinner at Westin was awesome. Love the ambience and the companion.
Can't be more thankful for this group of friends who have never failed me.
Still remember how depressed I was during my first breakup.
H took me to JB for a road trip.
Bought me good food, accompanied me for shopping and instantly made me feel so much better…
Then come the final breakup where I know it's gonna be over.
Went to beer market with H and J where again,
they did all they could to make me whole.
I cried, and they wiped my tears dry.
They hugged me and comforted me, they showered me with warmth and love.
They assured me that everything's gonna be fine soon,
and that I'll find someone better.
I refused to believe them, because a large part of me then,
still clanged on to the old relationship.

And so, headed to HK with bestie and met up with E there.
Went sightseeing, shopping and drinking…
E took care of me the whole night and what more could I asked?

Soon, weeks past and I was slowly moving on.
My colleagues spurred and motivated me…
Even though they don't know much about how we were,
N reaffirmed me that my choice is the wisest that one can ever make.
With time, I began to have faith in myself.

November came and W reappeared in my life.
Was it God's timing, I often wonder.
We had many good catch-up sessions, and we enjoyed each other's companionship very much.
Each time after departing, I would wish the next meet-up come soon.
I thought I was very smitten by this man, or is it just infatuation?
Love doesn't come so quickly, aren't we all aware?

So we spend many happy occasions together last December.
Christmas & Countdown.
It was a good wrap-up for us.
2014 came and we had a good start.
We caught the fireworks just in time!
I'm still grinning ear to ear recalling how we made it that day!
Getting lost at my uncle's place and speeding down to GBTB.

When you start the year well, all things good follow.
How true.
W celebrated my 26th birthday with me…
I wore a white dress that I bought from BKK.
He got me a gift - a white dress that is 70% similar to the one I was wearing.
Same color, same design, different style (body-hugging vs flair)
Coincidence? one questions.

He treated me to a Jap food, which is our all-time favorite.
Had many good laughs and teases, as usual.
I prepared a fruit box for him in return for planning my birthday dinner.
I guess, we're both appreciative of what we've put into in this friendship.
It's unusual, and more than anyone could asked.
When we got home, he sent me a recording of him singing me a birthday song.

It was sweet. My heart melted.

Many more celebrations in the days to come.
I can't wait for this beautiful year to slowly unfold itself.

Counting my blessings everyday.

Healing in the process

His existence has made me a little stronger, a little better.
Then again, a part of me still fears the past.
The once beautiful relationship we had.
The thought of him sends chill down my spine.
Have I really stop loving this man? Or am I just too busy and couped up with work?

I'm healing from this pain that is inflicted.
We all know it takes time to completely erase those tiny footsteps taken together.
It really does.
It has been almost 4 months.
Still fresh, still healing.

2014, I can do it.