Happy birthday my precious babyyyyyyy

It's baby's 22nd birthday today! (:

And...

I have a day filled with my own...
tuition + piano + tuition.
3pm-9pm

Meeting baby for dinner,
and it'll be OUR TIME :D

if only I could...

I'm contemplating if I should get the Lenovo laptop instead.

But it costs $3600!!!

I just gotten my practicum posting.

quite surprised with the result.

BLGPS.

a very typical neighborhood school (:

hope to be gaining enriching experience there.

I've got alot to say,

but I have got no time!

still hasn't practised all my piano scores!!! :(

Im procrastinating again.

I'm so addicted to facebook again.
Been hooked for the whole hour! :'(
Meeting baby for lunch tmrw before tuition,
while he makes his way down for his appt.
If time had allow, I'll have forsaken the tuition schedule.
But you know I'm really tight for time.

Waking up at 10am later.
5.5hrs of slp last night.
Why am I slping lesser during my holidays?

Night cycling this weekend has been postponed till further notice.
In exchange, we're meeting xxx for social night at minds cafe!
kinda eggcited :P

Not to forget our date to botanical garden this weekend.
Picnic-ing with the babes on 11th may @ Sentosa.

Eventful holiday...(:
So much love.

running on a VERY tight schedule

I wanna blog, but I don't know what I should speak.
My HP laptop's dying.
The keys are flying, and i'm 6 weeks away from the IT show!
:(

How am I gg to survive without it?
Monday - 1.5 hr tuition
Tuesday - 5.5 hr tuition
Wednesday - 3.5 hr tuition
Thursday - 4.5 hr tuition + piano
Friday - 2 hr tuition
(barely breathing...)

But still,

planning a night cycling date with the DAC dearies this weekend.
Hoping that at least 8 can make it.

4 is confirmed, including baby (:

Can't wait to have fun.
I need to get myself out of that guilt-stricken mood!

bb 22nd birthday!

These photos are randomly taken over the long weekend.

we indeed had lots of fun! :)

looking forward to the next long weekend ... :D

:'(

It's amazing how I m still this strong...
But somehow,

I know it's not gonna last long.
I'm vanishing inside.

I'm sorry I'm procrastinating

I woke up before 10am this morning.
10 hours long of sleep. It felt really good.
I shall TRY sleeping early in future (:
Sometimes it's not that I don't want to,
but the fact that I share room with an idiotic norturnal animal who doesn't needa slp.
It makes life alittle harder for me.
I'm suddenly thinking about the pragmatics paper that I did yesterday.
I could have added in alittle footnote at the bottom to gain extra marks!
SHUCKS.
I actually overlooked this, cuz I was really tight for time,
and my handwriting was really, doctor-like.
:(

Please let me do well, prof!

CDA tmrw.
I'm still alittle lost on the 30 marks section.
I need to get it right in 20 hour's time.

kinda miss boyfriend's presence lately.
have been conversing very little due to our schedules.
sent a text last night and then KO-ed.
that's not a very usual me, I know.
thank god this friday's a public holiday.
we're definitely gg out to have fun!

This examination mood is not making me a happy girl.
I'm couped in this house for the whole week!
And then tmrw and thursday is major tuition and piano hours!
8.5 hrs altogether.

I feel like giving up this CDA but I don't wanna get anything below a B.
If everything goes well, I reckon my GPA will be back.
See the dilemma, see the contradiction??
if only.

Why do we even study because of grades?
Do they really matter so much?

I can't help but agree that all these are socially constructed expectations.
If only they cease to exist.

And I feel like going for a short getaway this June holiday...
:) Nikoi island?
Beautiful place to indulge in.

But then again, I may need to forgo this year's holiday over MACBOOK!
:(

fatigue is kkkkeeeellllliiinnnggggg~

I can't hold on any longer.
I'm feeling extremely fatigue and I can't function properly.
I need a proper nap, and be back tmrw morning to continue mugging the entire day.
Night people
Have a good good day!

I smell freedom....

I'm battling with the monthly feminine torture.
I hate this feeling- it totally sucks.
I can't sit, and I can't fall asleep.
The pain is getting unbearable.
I've spammed 4 pills since the period.
Just popped 2 paracetamol awhile ago.
The effect is not working yet :(
I need to be immuned to keep my body working.

Today's Pragmatics paper was fine.
At least my tummy knows when to ache, and when not to.
Didn't do too well for the 20% CDA critique paper.
Scored a B. :(
Why am I scoring an average B this sem?
I need to level up!

Seriously hope that I did well for this prag exam to pull up my overall.
I tried my best, really.
I wrote till the last minute.
and my brain mulfunctioned.
*HAHA*

And did I say that this HP elitebook is on the verge of breaking down?
It takes ages to start up, and it hangs every few words I type.
I can't wait to purchase my MACBOOK PRO!
I need to get everything ready before practicum.

It's not about how well I do in exam,
but how well I'm able to execute my skills in class,
and how influential an authoritative figure I am.
I guess that's more significant as an educator.
:)

Will be recharged for the last paper of YEAR 3,
and I'll b done and over with.
TOO SICK OF STUDYING!

Tonight, I pray that PRAGMATICS' GONNA BE EASY AS ABCCCCC

I woke up at 4 this afternoon.
It was a long good sleep.

I think I'm 80% prepared for pragmatics.
I do still have queries, but they can only be left unanswered.
I'll try my best (: no matter what it takes.

CDA examination this wed.
I'm quite fearful for the fact that I'm only studying 2 e-lecs.
I'm no idea how to study for the 50% of the paper that is purely application.
ARGH.
Tellmehowtoshine! :(

I think I needa read up abit more.
Just in case what I planned to come out didn't.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Be right back for updates.

:D

I have a dream

I need to get a grip right now,
before everything is too late.

I finished studying pragmatics.
I did it one round, and that's it (:
sure hope I'll do well.
I've fully understood the concepts.

And now that I'm starving,
I have no freaking soul to buy me supper.
The worst part was seeing sis gaming right beside, and was told she's lazy to move her bum down.
You know seriously, how IDIOTIC and SELFISH can a person be?
I'll never do that, those who know me well.
But she could, obvs shows that she's a good-for-nothing.
I mean is true, don't u agree?
I'll never wanna grow up like her.
A useless-pc of shit lying around, sucha letdown.

Call me traditional, but I always think that the oldest one in the family should always set a good example for the rest to emulate. I think it makes sense to think this way.

Perhaps, because I'm put in sucha environment
I told myself I'll not be a disappointment to anyone,
my parents and myself.
I'll be the shining star.

I told mum and baby about my dream recently.
To be getting my diploma in piano and master by 30,
to buy a car within 2 years of graduation.
The marriage part, i'll leave to baby to decide :X

Life's a box of chocolates
we never know what we'll get till we try it.

Because I believe,
the fruits will always be sweet after all the sweat and labor.
right? (:

Off to mug for another hour or so.

mugging in process

I have 4 days to study for 2 papers.

AAE 433 Pragmatics on 18th Apr, 1pm
AAE 435 CDA on 20th Apr, 1pm

I do not have the longest time to mug for a 60% and 50% respectively.
But I genuniely think that I can still make it.
I really need to study smart now.

Prag, I only have to understand how you work,
and I'll apply you during the examination.

CDA, I'll study half of what you offered,
but still, be the outstanding one.

ICANDOIT.
IWILLDOIT.
IMUSTDOIT.

and i'm gonna miss baby so much.
4hrs was way too shorttttttt~~

Yay! SUBMITTED ONLINE!

time check: 4.10am

I've officially completed my lesson plan.
Don't wanna count how many pages I printed.
It was more than 50 considering all the cover pages.
Haven in my life did such an assignment.

6D5N of energy wasted on you.
Please let it be worthwhile.
At least an A- pls.
I'm begging to get my GPA back into my desired class.
So near yet so far - hate that feeling, you know it.

Have this sudden craving for koi/eskimo.
then again, i'm gonna hit the most dreaded period of the mth :(
So i better watch my diet...

Things that I've officially accomplishd till this point.
More than 50 pages of assignment.
58 slides of ppt.
Burn video and ppt (with animation) into CD-R.
I think I shld take a pic of my hardwork.
Will be uploaded.

Weekends gonna be HIGH MADNESS.
baby'll be away for good/bad idk.
I'll pia for this one last time to be UP in that class.

Jiayou, JESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Jessica @
4.13am

Another midnight oil BURNT!!!

I am FUCKING done with 2 lesson plans (20 marks each)
Another 20 marks is untouched. 300 words worth 20 marks?
Definitely not a problem hitting the word count.
But I do know I will have a HUGE problem coming out with the rubrics to assess pupils' work.
GAWD. HOW HOW HOW!!!

I completed 8 pages of lesson plan, almost 3000 words.
1 page of references
Appendix A with 2 worksheets, 2 answer sheets
Appendix B with 6 files (supposedly only require 1, but I GAY KIANG)
Have this mentality that doing more/putting in more effort earns more marks.
58 slides of PPT.
1 downloaded video.
IDK. Shall see.
GIMME an A pls!!

Part C undone.
Assignment due on Friday 10am.
Piano and tuition tmrw! WHAT THE FUCK!?

Bed time and I'll be back at 1pm.

Massive printing going on tmrw!
:)

Jessica @
4.40am

Productive me!

I'm quite done with both lesson plans, all in a day!
*pat on my back*

Still, there's a whole list to complete before moving on to the last section: Assessment
my most dreadful portion cuz I have NO idea what to write/attach! :(

Here's what I plan to do later when I wake up.
1. State rationale and support with readings for grammar lesson plan.
2. Complete ppt for writing lesson plan.
3. Add in 'so' under grammar lesson plan. Decided to teach one more item. (:
4. Complete writing lesson plan anticipated response with baby.

I have this feeling that there's something wrong with my writing lesson plan.
Am I supposed to include all the rules inside the content? seems awkward.

Shall confide with the rest soon.
By hook or crook, I needa get both lesson plans done in 24hrs' time.

And then, I'll move on to assessment. I'll just die horribly cuz I'll only have a day for it,
and it weighs as much as each lesson plan.

FML srsly.

Off for bed.

Jessica @
4.16am

GRAMMAR LESSON PLAN DONE YEA!

Yup! I think I'm almost there for the grammar lesson plan.
But then again, there's still 3 things pending for this.

1. Practice Worksheet needs to be edited
2. Rationale needs to be stated and supported with readings
3. Edit the production materials.

I'll be moving on to the writing lesson plan tmrw.
I guess I can finish this writing task within a day cuz I have everything all planned.
I hope I don't take long writing my own text.

I know this is what others called 自讨苦吃.
I can obviously search for a text online/in books but I chose not to.
I'd rather write my own text and plan it to suit what I wanna teach.
Maybe, I'm different in this manner.
Others take a week to complete the whole 60% assignment when they adapted texts online.

I started my assignment less than one week before the deadline,
and I'm writing my own texts!
FML.
I don't know how I'll survive.

CDA class later at 12.
I needa wake up at 10.
another 6 hours of bed
:'(

9 more days and I'll have the longest freedom.

Jessica @
3.48am

Kanjiong max!

OH MY GOSH!
There are just so many things to do for ACE lesson plan.
Grammar lesson plan is ultimate hard to teach.
If I didn't get my rules right, that's it.
I'm gonna flunk that section.
Been working on it since the past 4 hours.
And I still have a whole long list to complete! :(

I'm so dead.
Gonna work on my CRITIQUE essay now.
Due 12/04/11 at 12pm.
I'm 80% complete.
I can do it! :)

Monday- Tuition at UT (2hrs)
Tuesday - CDA class (2hrs; thank god I already cancelled tuition with cousies)
Wednesday - Meeting baby at night. Gonna help me with the aesthetic stuff pls.
Thursday - Piano and tuition (3hrs)
Friday - Submission at 10, not 5!!!
Weekends- STUDY PRAGMATICS!

Off to do work.

Jessica @
3.53am

Cheers. Finally productive.

I am officially done for the first part. (760 words)
Part 2 is on the highway! (:(:(:
Will be completed by Sunday.

OKAY.
ACE tomorrow, wkends and the whole of next week.
That goes to say, I'm only left with 2 days to study for pragmatics exam (18th Apr) and another 2 days for CDA (20th Apr).
Look at how inefficient and nonsensical Foundation Office is.

BLARDY NO STUDY WEEK!

Shall see how i'll die.
Or maybe, pull myself through.

off to bed,
Jessica @
2.40am

The motivation drive is here!

I've the STRONGEST motivation to finish up question 1 of my critique essay tonight (:
Somehow, I realised I'm more of a capricorn than an aquarius.
Is that a good/bad thing?

Mock test was okay.
I literally crap through the whole paper.
Dr Teo scanned through my paper and said "The paper is easy, isn't it?"
I replied "No, very difficult"
Which part of my face/answer scripts show that I can actually answer the question?
I can't even grasp the concepts behind the tenets.
I'm gonna be so dead SRSLY.

Be right back later.
Have a awesome night peeps.

For those who are in the midst of meeting deadlines, burning midnight oil like me,
HANG ON!
I'm here with you, albeit at another corner of this world.
Not near, not far (cuz Spore's only that small)

(:

Jessica @
12.14am

I shall JIAYOU!

I think I quite finished one brief round of revision for CDA (:
Hope tmr's mock test gonna be fine.
GOOD LUCK JESSICA.

Baby has nights out every wed, so we'll be roaming JP like our *th home.
Checked out the APPLE desktop and MACBOOK at NUBOX.
Came to a conclusion: I shall wait for the IT fair and get my MACBOOK PRO. :D
It's SET.
then I'll get another 20+ inch screen as my monitor for home usage.
And if my cash's not that tight,
I'll probably get a wireless mouse and keyboard too.
All within 3K.Reasonable, isn't it?

For now, I shall work hard and wait for my stipend to start rolling in ...
Till then, my wish will be granted.

<3

Jessica @
2.44am

Awesome 433 groupmates!

Just some random update.

 .

Edwin.Ann.Jes.Raudah.Jane.

Baker,Warren,Watson,Delacorte,(i forgot the role)

in Mona Lisa Smile movie.

25% and we've gotten

( __ ) for this project!

Jessica @

2.56am

Gonna heck!

Officially turning down my lappy for another 3 hours of mugging.
I've yet to complete half of what's tested for this thur's 2.5hr mock test.
I'm dead-meat. SERIOUS.
But why am I not feeling guilty or whatsnot?

Maybe, I'm not an avid learner anymore.
The marathon's way too draggy for me.
I'm nowhere in sight.

On a sidenote,
I'm really amazed at how one can change their 'colors' just so to get what they want.
I'm talking about this someone that I know in school.
To have her saying this 'friendship is golden' is indeed amusing.
What have this world turned to?
She needs some life-changing event to wake up.
I kinda find it pitiful that she's losing her friends one by one...
Haven had the time to bitch about it.

will be back to these gossips once exam is over! (:(:(:

Jessica @
12.57am

We'll always be okay

In the past, I always see upon those men who give in to their girlfriends/wife as 很有风度。
But apparently it's hard to find such men in the society today.
Like what's always said, good men have all extinct.
I don't agree.

You literally made me cry with that one message.
'Yes, there's always someone better.'

In this world, humans are constantly looking for changes,
never realised contentment, self-satisfaction.
I'm sorry to say I fall victim to this.

move on, moving on...
Life'll be better.

Jessica @
9.57pm

CDA SUCKS.

I hit the word limt but I'm not happy.
Its a half-hearted piece of rubbish that I wrote.
There is no coherence and content to the main conceptual knowledge.
I can't understand what is going on in my mind.
Why am I behaving this way?!
This is so frustrating!
:(

Jessica @
4.37pm

sleepless night it was.

I had a 5-hour sleep.
Totally not satisfying.
Woke up way before baby called, and I couldn't get back to bed.

I'm feeling exactly the way I would feel before assignment deadlines, examination.

I'm getting back into my essay.
Will be back once I'm done.
Gonna make it happen, by hook or crook baby~!

Jessica @
12.02pm

thank you baby

And I forgot to mention that I finished half of my CRITIQUE ESSAY!
Oh well, I actually went off topic because I misinterpreted the question.
Thank god I had a really nice classmate who happened to inform me through a casual convo :)

I need to finish the entire first draft in 24 hr's time.
I know I can with a little motivation and confidence in myself :D

Boyfriend has really been sweet, waking me up every morning.
He has been my walking-alarm, allowing me to snooze as long as I want it to be.
Every night before I slp, I would send a text to remind baby of the morning call that he needs to make.
And when morning comes, he never fails me.
That's an ideal boyfriend you should call.
Sadly, the girlfriend fails him each and every morning, snoozing for an average of 2 hours.
I know this sounds really pathetic, but I find it SOOO freaking hard to drag myself outta bed!
Baby has his ways if he's physically around me, but when he's not, I take that for granted :P
Of course, he's always nice to give in to my every demand.
I find myself so mean suddenly.

Baby, thank you for all the morning calls you've made.
I'll give you my words. I would wake up within 3 calls later.
*HAHA*

It's an effort I'm making. I hope you see it.
Your undivided attention, unfailing love, continual care and concern have been the central driving force in helping me achieve what I had so far...

Thanks for helping me see the potential I have in myself, and regaining the once-lost confidence..

The feelings I have towards you is still the same.
Or perhaps, they have grown more intense and strong over the circumstances that we've been through all these months.

My guardian angel,
how would I be without you?

XD

Jessica @
2.31am

Hang on HP!

I have this feeling that this HP ELITEBOOK is gonna crashed any time from now.
Yes, more reason to buy that MAC desktop, followed by a MacBook Air at the end of the year :)
Sometimes, I wish I'm just rich enough to buy the things that I really need without having to hesitate for so long.
I need a good, stable desktop for work/school. More so, I need a handy and portable lappy which I can hold wherever I go, especially when I go over to bb's place.

Perhaps, working hard and smart is the only fast way to realizing my dream.
Make it into a reality I shall.

Jessica @
2.22am

Epic answers

quoted

Q: When isit okay to kiss someone?
A: The rule goes like this: if you kiss someone, then you should marry them and have kids with them. It's the right thing to do.

-Howard, age 8


Q: Is it better to be single or married?
A:  It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys ALWAYS need someone to clean up after them.

-Anita, age 9


Sometimes, kids know better than adults do :)

Jessica @
10.54pm

435 Essay YAY!

Yay! I've done 30% of my 435 Critique Essay!
Everything in point form but still, I reckon is easier to proceed from here than a fresh piece of document,
don't you agree? :)

Something is hitting me hard on my head today.
It's this strong urge to really complete the task on hand.
I'm feeling the urgency of examination approaching in less than 2 weeks.
I know I've been whining since weeks ago, but HEY I'M SERIOUS TODAY!

Will be back for updates.

Jessica @
4.44pm

nauseous-y

I'm still feeling nauseous from the long ride home, and is finding it hard to concentrate.

I need to sleep.

Night babies.

Jessica @
1.52am

Horoscope for today

I'm never a true fan of horoscope. I think they are too generalized for someone to actually believe every word it said.

But today, these words shot straight into my heart, knocking some sense into me.
I felt like I was literally awaken by something I've always wanted the answer to.

Here's what it says:
"Have you been putting off Aquarius? Is it something that requires you to put a lot of energy towards a goal that you feel only half-hearted about at best? In the past, this very same situation may have inspired greater passion from you. So what has changed? You're the same person. But you may have become a more distrustful version of yourself even without realizing it. Maybe you hope for less now, and you can't see the full beauty of an opportunity even when it falls into your lap. Take a new look at an offer with fresh eyes, and maybe you can work up some enthusiasm - it offers much more than you realize."

It gave me the answer to what I've been asking boyfriend this evening.

I'll start bucking up and getting my arse back on track. I know I need that little determination to get through this semester.

3 more weeks to the end of EVERYTHING.

Jessica @
11.52pm