Grandma's 66th Birthday Celebration

Kbox @ CCK. Favourite cousin ever. Grandparents and the youngest cousin, ADEN

Cake-cutting (:

Warmth and <3

pooling.

the notorious girls/ladies.

SUPERWOMAN wannabe!

Family Photo - informal

Family Photo - formal

And so, grandmother was obviously very happy with the turnout last weekend (:

It was full attendance (not counting those who 出差公干)

I really enjoyed myself, indulging in the warmth of my loved ones.

Grandmother couldn't be happier with us around,

the creative/lovable grandsons/grandaughters.

"听奶奶的话，别让她受伤。

。。。

听外婆的话，别让她受伤"

Being the empress of the day,

we alter the lyrics alittle, just so

to make her smile like a sweet little angel (:

*blood is thicker than water*

said many times, never failing to refuse it.

I know I'm blessed to be part of this family

jessica @

1.24am

project.dinner.baby.

I have got the most AWESOME partner in this world!

ACE Micro-teaching (presentation) is tmrw
and yet we haven had any thing prepared.
What we did were mere brain-storming through the emails and phone.

I can't wait to get it OVER AND DONE WITH.
Tuition tmrw from 7-9pm.
I have this huge temptation of skipping it,
but then again is PAY DAY!
Can you feel the dilemma I'm facing :(

And btw,
the dinner date I had with mummy, daddy and bro last night was fabulous!
We dined at Thai Express JP
and kinda hold a little 'feast'
I can't help but agree that I've gotten my 'thai' genes from dad.
He was sooo in love with the food!
Money well-spent, and of course quality time too! :)

I miss baby.
Although we've been meeting up quite abit recently
I still felt like we haven't had much time together.
I enjoy the quality time we spent;
talking to each other about our future
the dreams we have.

Humans are never satisfied with what they're given.
that's it.

jessica @
1.38am

Blackboard sucks

My room is in a HUGE MESS.

The wires and USB cables are lying everywhere.
I can't seem to locate the ends.

I can't find my eraser
and I'm annoyed.
Idk what's wrong with myself,
I get agitated over the slightest thing.

I need a chill pill.

Maths E-learning is driving me up the wall with all the administrative faults that's happening.
NIE should really do something about the system.
We can't afford to lose our time redo-ing things we've done.

No music lesson tmrw (:
I can have a longer slp tonight.
Everyone's complaining abt the lack of slp every night.
6/7 hrs.

2.30am - 11.30 pm (9 hrs) i shall have.
Night pals.

jessica @
2.05am

trust

How does it really feel to know that your partner trusts no one in this world,
including you?

I'm at a lost of words.

There can't be no trust between a couple because COMMUNICATION is the key
I feel lousy and bad
I feel like crying
I don't deserve such treatment
I ought to be trusted.

I've always done all I could to make up for all the wrongdoings of the past
Sometimes I wonder if these are what make up this current relationship
Compensating for the once lost.
Is really silly.

They said 'it takes two hands to clap...'
apparently, it appears that I'm the only one trying hard..
ever so hard!

Today I felt like I've reached the limit
I felt like I didn't wanna tolerate anymore
Is the day I start pondering about being with a man who doesn't trust entirely.

It hurts.
I feel it for real.

jessica @
11.31pm

Last night's downpour came at the wrong hour.
My cramps were made worst.
Took my med at 5am and went back to bed.

12.25pm now.
Tuition in 2 hours or so.

baby an official sergeant (:

保家卫国的军人! *HAHA*
Baby graduated from the specialist cadet school last Friday 18 Mar 11.
An official sergeant at Jurong camp now.
Right beside my school, 10 min drive from my house.
It's god-doings. I know.

<3

Jessica

school again.

Battling with my cramps again.
I hate being a woman sometimes.
Why do I even have to suffer these unnecessary pain?
:(

I've done quite abit of work today.
little by little (:
finished my part for ace group lesson plan.
completed maths e-learning part 1 and
left with alittle touch-up to do for music lesson plan II

Grandma's birthday celebration at Kbox this Sat, 5pm-3am
Idk how we'll survive that 10 hours inside the room.
*shrug*
anyway, family reunion's always the best thing that happened in my life.
people who never leaves. you know their importance.

I have alot more to say,
but I'm lazy to blog.

BRB.

jessica @
12.35am

ALL CUZ OF MY ITCHY HANDS!

I JUST UPGRADED MY IPHONE TO THE LATEST VERSION
and guess what happened?
Everything is restored back to factory settings =.=
All my apps are gone, including those that I paid for.
even the songs baby synced for me
*annoyed max*

I'm gonna start doing some work and turn in.
Filming tmrw morning.
I hope my skin looks radiant and good (:
bless.

jessica @
1.13am

WHAT A BIATCH!

Was totally in a foul mood when I stepped out from the salon.

The hairdresser simply chipped off 3inches off my hair!?!

WTF.

*pissed*

I swear I'm not gonna return there for a haircut again.

Baby was really sweet to humor me throughout my whines.

I know I kinda put on an ugly scene yanking all the way

but baby's really nice.

thank you.

The hair doesn't matter much anymore.

it'll grow. just like our love (:

Assignment for tonight:

memorize my script for tmr's filming.

I'm gonna act as Ms Watson, the teacher and it's insane thinking about it.

Jessica playing the leading role?!

TSKK.

I hope our acting skills would be great enough to earn as an A in this project.

Once again, putting off my pride to play the role (:

It'll work for me. I know.

be right back.

jessica @

7.35pm

be receptive

(:(:(:

Music presentation was a great success!
my lesson plan works!
Dr Wong was greatly impressed.
I'm truly flattered by all the positive remarks.
Thank you all! :D
This presentation has really given me the spirit to spur harder in the upcoming terms.

Remember, hardwork together with confidence, WILL bring SUCCESS!

On a sidenote,
I'm pretty unhappy with the fact that we had to critique our friends in the CDA class.
Of course, I'm aware that these arrangements are pre-assigned and there's little room for negotiation.
Well I guess, I'm more taken aback by how the group reacted towards our critique, which I thought were constructive comments. I'm not sure what exactly was the issue but for a fact, I knew that this was a fair judgement. No prejudice. No biasness.

We need to understand that humans learn through our past mistakes, coupled with guidance and feedback from peers and the older generation.

If one can't accept negative remarks, then the question here is, "ARE YOU READY FOR THIS CAREER?"

公事公办. I hope this makes sense.

Still, I think it was a great effort put in.
It would have been better if it was accepted with an open heart and mind...
I'm sure things will be better (:

TGIF.
<3

jessica @
2.13am

music presentation later !

I'm getting excited over tmrw's music presentation.
It's gonna be my very FIRST music presentation in school, 40%.
weighs motherhell loads! :(

I gotten my materials ready. I have 30 sets of lesson plans printed.
The rest depends on how I'm gonna execute it.
THE STAGE IS MINE!
*nervous*
I really am.

Today has been pretty smooth-sailing...
Still hate how lesson ends at 6.30 on the dot.
Damn the weather, I was 5 mins late for class.
Pfft.

Tmr's gonna be worst.

jessica @
1.01am

cravings

Fact:
A crunchy way to deal with stressful days - walnuts!
Recent research suggest that a daily handful of this food, high in fiber and good fat, lowers blood pressure levels that can get cranked up by in-the-moment anxiety.

Is time I pack some walnuts into my bag! (:

I promised to get an early rest tonight,
to prepare myself for a longer marathon tomorrow.
11.30-9.30pm of school and tuition is no joke.

and you know,
that tom-yums i had really perked up my day!
(:
thank you baby.

jessica @
12.32am

worried

I want to weather the storm with you,
but I don't know how to.
I want to go through the darkest channels with you,
but I find myself losing my way.

:(

I've tried and I know you still mattered.
The hug that marked the beginning of our relationship,
it is not forgotten.
there's no closure to that.
remember it.

fatigue is draining me so badly even when I've 8 hrs of slp!
tell me i'm not right.

jessica @
1.38am

Am I stuck?!

I have a feeling that my music lesson plan wouldn't work out!
HOW HOW.
Got this BAD BAD feeling suddenly :(
I'm just gonna pray that JOON's gonna be lenient to me
I'm not a MUSIC MAJOR mind you!

8 pages of lesson plan, 10 powerpoint slides (2 pages)
It's gonna cost me a bomb!

On a side note,
I'm really amazed by Japanese's stoic calmness in such adversity.
I do hope the economy recover fast :)
Let's all pray for them.

Night world.
another long week ahead!

jessica @
2.22am

Cheers!

I can't believe I completed my 40% music lesson plan within a day! (:(:(:
7 pages, almost hitting 1000 words.
And the bad thing is, I'm gonna photocopy 30 sets for the class
which I'm forseeing at least a loss of $15!

be right back for more..

jac's birthday celebration at Minds Cafe

It's one of the most TIRING day ever this sem.
Having slept less than 6 hours last night, I've been awake for almost 20 hours.
I need to hibernate.

Jac's 24 birthday celebration at Minds cafe was awesomely insane.
The games we played were completely mind-blowing.
We forgot that we are the future educators of our nation.
H.A.H.A.
We were so full from the fish & chips meal, that no one actually eat the cake.
So Jac brought home the whole cake beautifully, with only a minor cut.
I think is funny.

Anyway is high time I hit the sack.
The weather's tempting me since I stepped home.

Whatever.

Great weekend ahead! (:

jessica @
2.49
(seriously dead)

The day we've been waiting for

I kept feeling nauseous this entire day
and I visited my 'good friend' a.k.a the doctor this evening.
Spent another fifty bucks again.
This month alone, I've spent a hundred on medical.
Look how pathetic I am.

Tomorrow's gonna be the student-led seminar that we've all been busy preparing for.
I really hope everything's gonna be smooth-sailing cuz I'm looking forward to a GOOD PRESENTATION (:
Bless us.

And then, it would be a play-hard session at night, with the girls! (:
I hope we'll have another rocking good time laughing over games this time.
MINDS CAFE.
I've heard all about you, but never tried you out once.
I'm so gonna hit you jackpot tmrw.

And once tomorrow is officially over,
it'll be time to devote all my time to music lesson plan.
including my weekends :(

is 1am, and I'm losing sleep.
night world.

jessica @
1am

P.E.A.C.E

I never like group projects.
They always come together with politics, disagreements, conflicts.
I'm not spared.

I don't wish to comment further.
It's really ironic.
I've done my part.
That's what's important (:

I've a long day at school tmrw
because of group project.
I hope we pull through this student-led seminar this thursday (:

I'm not feeling in the best of mood.
I'm really exhausted even when I sleep an average of 7hrs/day.
W.H.Y.

jessica @
12.45am

you're not sorry

I think I know what was going on.

I felt my heart sinking.

A leopard never changes its spots.

You're still the same.

The more I tried, the harder it gets.

Someone tell me how to face this.

should I even feign ignorance.

struggling within

I don't come from a wealthy family
Neither am I born in a silver spoon
But I work hard to get the things I want.

Others may look down on me
they may find me shallow-minded, useless, superficial
they can't reap benefits out of me
But I know where my strength lies

I may have started some things late
But I'm gonna make it to where you are someday
I have the determination to fight for the things I want
Do you?

I'm gonna make myself proud one day
because I know I can.
Nothing tears me down!

I may not be strong emotionally
I may depend on my man for all the emotional support
But I certainly know that I have the WILL that others do not have.

(:

jessica @
12.02 am

Doesn't it make sense?

The few days away from home flew past with a wink of an eye
We all know happy times fly FAST (:

There's more to look forward to this weekend
but before that, there's still piles of work waiting for me.

I think sometimes in life,
these are the little motivations that keep us moving,
that allow us to accomplish things with ease...

Food for thought...

And you wonder why it didn't last
She married him because he was such a 'strong man'
She divorced him because he was such a 'dominating man'

He married her because she was so 'fragile and cute'
He divorced her because she was so 'weak, dependent and helpless'

She married him because he is a 'good provider'
She divorced him because 'all he thinks about is business'

He married her because 'she reminds me of my mother'
He divorced her because 'she's getting more like his mother everyday'

She married him because he was 'happy-go-lucky and romantic'
She divorced him because he was 'too carefree, impractical and silly'

He married her because she was 'steady and sensible'
He divorced her because she was 'boring and dull'

She married him because he was 'the life of the party'
She divorced him because 'he's too much of a party boy'




This emotional dilemma is too much for me to digest...

Jessica @
3.02am